I sure am and I am very good at it.
I hold on to tension physically in my body. I hold on to physical stuff that I no longer need (not at hoarder status though). I hold on to emotions and habits that no longer serve me. And I am really good at holding on to other people’s shit!
It wasn’t until this past year that I realized how much I carry other people’s energies. It was damn crowded inside of me and didn’t leave much room for me. This looks like carrying the responsibility for others, trying to save people, people pleasing, worrying about what others think of me, being who I think you want me to be.
Sound familiar? I have cleared and shifted A LOT of energy in me this past year! I gotta tell you, it feels SO good to not be carrying and holding energies of others and just have me in my space.
And despite it feeling so much better, letting go is still not easy yet. I have let go of a 23 year career. I have let go of relationships. I have let go of feeling responsible for others and of holding all that is not mine to hold.
And the letting go continues…
Sometimes I feel relief and freedom. Sometimes I feel sadness. And through all of it, I am feeling and knowing more and more of myself.
So much is coming into my awareness right now that is ready to be let go of. All that isn’t in alignment with who I am being, is surfacing for me to see and say good bye to. It can feel really overwhelming and it does feel like a lot. And I did let it take me out a bit but now I see that all this falling away of that which is not in alignment with me, is for me. It is for my highest and best good.
So I am writing this today because I know I am not alone in this time of letting go. Keep breathing, being gentle with yourself and know that the letting go is one of the most loving things you can do for you and everyone.
Much love to you.